As I sit here cuddled upon my comfy couch with a warm cup of peppermint tea (I got from Momma Garner) I find my self thinking upon the sheer goodness and loving kindness of my God. I woke up this morning after not sleeping almost the entire night with a weight of guilt and shame piled on me because I missed an Intercession set at the House of Prayer. I thought that everyone was upset and I had failed everyone. I felt lazy because I slept in late due to the lack of sleep in the night. (I can't get away form the night watch. I don't know what it is but it is in me. I am still seeking understanding on this one haha).

So I go over to the PR to pray and read. As soon as I get settled into my spot a song off of the new Misty Edwards Fling Wide cd comes on, #9 Arms Wide Open. If you get a chance check it out. REALLY GOOD. Anyways, she starts sing "What does love look like? Is the question I've been pondering." Then she goes off on things she thought or believed love to be. I relate to most if not all that she sang of. Then she cuts into the meat of the revelation of love. The cross. The Man, Jesus hanging on a tree.

As this song is playing I open up my bible to my recent daily psalms regimen today started with Psalm 26 "1Vindicate me, O Lord, for I have walked in my integrity, And have trusted in the Lord without wavering. 2 Examine me, O Lord, and try me; Test my mind and my heart. 3 For Your lovingkindness is before my eyes, And I have walked in Your truth." I read through the first verse pretty quick just wanting to get through the reading but then I came to verse 2. It was like a road block in my soul and spirit. I couldn't go on any further. I stayed and chewed on it. Almost instantly I was in the Spirit and before the Holy presence of the Lord Most High. It was surreal. I felt totally exposed and wrapped in love at the same time. I saw there were things in my heart and belief system that hindered LOVE and its true revelation. Things that I believed about my self and how I felt others believed about me. Things I believed were hidden from God and in my own little secret place of personal comfort and empowerment. I went into a time of morning my own sin and repenting before the Holy Father. Freedom came through the door of that so called "secret place". Therefore, I know that Psalm 26 is right for me.

At that moment of rending my heart and not my garment and allowing Holy Spirit the examine the depths in real time set the mark of a wonderful day with my Beloved and my Friend. I was actually hoping to go into some different testimonies in this blog but I think this is good for now. I pray that you read this Psalm and allow the true and pure examining of your mind and heart. It might look similar to what I experienced and it just might look totally different. Either way purification is a beautiful thing whatever it looks like.